My papa

About my dad's health condition, it's already not a new concern to me. Though his health level is considered good now, nothing to be worried much, but every time i see him, i would feel guilty as his daughter. I'm sure that he's not as strong as before, i'm very clear that he already reached his 'golden age', and i always feel his muscles and body just need rest but not too much rest too, ha ha. some healthy, relaxing and mind-challenging activities must be available to him to have his time occupied. I wish so much that i can afford to give him the best health and best pleasures in life, like buy him his most favourite books, the nicest sofa, a big and comfort house, and anything he likes, no matter how expensive those things'll be. But in the real world there's the real fact that i have no such financial ability. When will i have that ability? i'm clear about that, i still have a long time to go before i'm financially independent. But i just wish it could be now, he just deserved to enjoy the best now. I think too far may be, but i'll just have more and more of that feeling as i see him grow older and older....i feel guilty too sometimes if he cares and do too much things for me... I'll try my best to give you the best, ya.

4th Day-23rd Nov

The last day, we visited the medical ward and surgery ward in the morning to get an insight into the doctors' daily working routine in the ward. However, we are left there doing nothing and we can't help up on anything (of course, coz we don't have the required skills) although deep inside our heart we yearned so much to reach out. We just have some chatting with the patients and try to attend to their basic needs, and got bored so fast. The session also ends early...ha..
Visited frineds in UM too, and joined them to the human boday specimen hall where they studied anotomy there. The specimens there had been left for almost 2 decades and the body texture became almost like soil. From soil men were made and to dust they'll return, now i realized how true it's!
The meaning of life to me has changed somehow...got to see life from another perspective now. =)