A long silence

What a long silence... Weeks and days full of bioscience, biochemistry, physiology and all had kind of put me off blogging for quite a long time. And tomorrow, will be that very challenging physio essay coming, and there's more to come after this week, aih...

I came across a few flash videos which are really nice and meaningful, they speaks to my heart, wanted to share that in my cell group website, but end up a failure to link it. I'm still so 'internet-blind'.. gotta learn more about uploading and linking stuff & adding gadgets to blogs...

Photos in Switzerland

I went to Switzerland for holiday from the 8th of July to the 15th of August...Here are a part of the photos of vacation in Switzerland....I hope you'll enjoy them!! :)

(not yet all though..)

To Jungfrau, Switzerland

Enjoying lunch here at Jungfrau...it's the German Speciality...it's really delicious..

Wee....happy to take photos with those beautiful mountains

Me, my sister & Kiana

The fresh grassland of Switzerland
All the cows here at Switzerland wear bells around their neck.. this cows is walking nearer and nearer towards me when we are taking photos...i'm a bit scared lah...am i look like something nice to eat?? Haha

The scenery is really amazing..behind me is two of the famous mountain named Jungfrau & Monk
And there's a restaurant up here too..
I love the colour of the nature- very blue and very green. That's the perfect match of colours!

Wohoo... it's kinda cold up there at over 2500m high above sea level...

Nice...captivating scenery

See those little animals...they are the cows enjoying the summer grass

There's like heaven on earth..really..

Bern

Bern is the capital city of Switzerland... it's a German speaking town. And we took a long walk along the pedestrian path...there are a lot of tourist there too...

The very famous street here in Bern


This clock is famous too for its music- it plays very nice music on every hour sharp and the little dolls on the clock will also dance around..

The small fountain...the water from most of the fountain in Switzerland is clean enough to be consumed...hu hu..

Aubonne

Took a visit around the place where my sister stay-Aubonne on 2nd day before my departure.. visited a few places and a park nearby... We went jungle trekking too...

Here looks like a golf resort...ha ha

In front of a house in Aubonne, i like the colour of this house so took a shot in front of it..ha ha

Halfway on our way up the mountain..

Hm...relaxing beside a pond..

Overflowing with blessings....

Having travelled in Switzerland & Italy for one month, I discovered a lot of things, learned new experiences, and experienced God too. It may sound wierd I have said that, but knowing more about God is what I get the most for this month, of course i enjoyed every beauty, every taste and every smell too here in Switzerland. :) I thank God for it. "God....generously gives us everything for our enjoyment"... The very relaxing and tranquil lifestyle here plus the fact that i'm here for vacation gives a heavenly place & time for me to refresh my mind. I can see through my life in a much more clear way and God brought me to enjoy & see the world in a bird's eyes view too. I got the chance to visit a few fascinating places high up in the mountain, up to 2500 metre high or 6000 ft above ground, and I am equipped with a relaxed mind to enjoy on every details of the earth. =) I discovered things from a different perspective of life, of the greatness of God, of purposes, of hope and our relatioships with the people we love around us. I see different people live for different things, some found reason in their kids, some found reason in their work and some live because of their loved ones...
I spend this one month feeling like dreaming. I decided to visit Switzerland in quite a rush and without much expectation, thus everyday is a surprise! =) This is my first time travelling fully sponsored and with much satisfaction.
My relationship with my sister get deeper & better too. We both have quite the similar 'feel' & humour about about most things. We can share a lot of things together openly, because we are no enemy at all, he he! I am glad to have her as my sister and she's happy to have me too. My sister said it's very hard to have a person in your life who understand you well. We may meet a lot of friends in our lives but mostly will be just our 'temporary companions' who'll be there in just a moment of our lives. That means it's pretty difficult to have an intimate friend forever, or an ideal partner in life, because normally people are not 100% sincere. That sounds sad & cruel right? Ha ha. I also of course do hold some things back and have some secrets to myself, too. Sometimes i really wish i could share and tell a lot of things to someone whom i trust wholly without have to hold back anything. Hu hu.=)
I hope i will be able to have enough time to write some account of my visit in Switzerland and other places in this blog for memories. Perhaps i could find time when i'm back home. ~

Here at Switzerland... =)

Reached here safely at Switzerland on Sunday. It had been quite a long hours of flight and i didn't sleep well on the plane. But i enjoyed travelling by myself very much. It had been an adventurous one. =) On my first flight, i met a doctor, Hui Min. She's heading to Glasgow and she had been working there for the fourth year. It was so lucky to met her as it's a plus to get to know more about Glasgow as she shared a lot of her experiences with me. :) Then while transit at the Dubai International airport, i got the opportunity to visit this large and well known airport. The airport was packed with people, different kinds of people from different country, everyone transit their flight there. And last two days sister brought me aroung the town of Aubonne, where we are staying now, and we did a lot of shopping here at Coop shopping centre and Migros shopping centre. Here these two shopping centre are the most well known. And along the highway while we travel i can see the IKEA furniture shopping mall and the Fedex courier service centre. Both these company originated from Europe!

Yesterday sister, Kiana and i went to enjoy hot spa swimming and bath at a place they called the Central Thermo, at the town of Yverdon. The place is about 45 minutes drive from sister's place. Hm...and we really had a good relaxing time there, to immerse ourselves in the warmth of the pool of water, enjoying the massage, in the cold weather of 11°c. Cool!

Anyway, today, actually since last night, i was not feeling well, and today, i'm sick....sad... and today the whole day i have to rest and rest well. Today i woke up with fever and sore throat and sneezing.. That's fast! Within one day i got so ill... Now in the afternoon i got much bettter.. hopefully tomorrow i'll recover, or else the trip to Geneva has to be cancelled....

Yesterday..at night, sister and i got into a heart to heart talk about religion stuff, it's all complicated... Why can't everyone on earth belief and worship only one God? If there's only one God and one concept, then it'll be so much direct and simple. haiz....

Island - a wonderful place to go

It has been a blessing for me to have the chance to enjoy a trip to Perhantian Island, Redang Island and Lang Tengah with my friends. This time we have fifteen of us going and we have everyone travelling in a speed boat whenever we want to travel from one Island to another! It's like having our very own speed boat to fetch us- the whole family of friends to start off our "island adventure" ! The trip was both amazing and like having a dream. This is my first ever experience snorkelling in the deep blue sea...and feel like day dreaming as i look into the wonderful world under the surface of the sea. I'm so amazed at the colourful creatures God has created on earth, every beautiful things doesn't happen by chance but by the mighty work of God. It's very enjoyable to be surrounded by varieties of fishes, and i'm so so happy to have the chance to see the crown fish (Nemo) with my own eyes!! Plus the opportunity to have a minute's look at the big turtle even brought more to my heart's satisfaction! Although the snorkelling trip had let most of us felt so tired, and the chalet room with no air-cond ( which is a little pity, ha ha), but it's worthwile afterall.. :) i enjoyed the trip very much, and the photos would be our very precious memories when we look back at them again in the future!

Ocean Deep

I hate the feeling, the unsecure feeling in searching something in life,
I want to just let my life to be like a glass bottle,
floating on the surface of the sea & let the wave to bring me somewhere, anywhere...
the ocean below's just too deep and complicated,
life would be far more easier if i don't take every little thing too seriously,
just be simple...
a big thanks to my dear friends, i can really share everything without have to hold back.... "huggies"=)

I found this song really nice, the lyrics are soft & beautiful

OCEAN DEEP
Love , can't you see I'm alone
Can't you give this fool a chance
A little love is all I ask
A little kindness in the night
Please don't leave me behind
No , don't tell me love is blind
A little love is all I askAnd that is all
Ooh love , I've been searchin' so long
I've been searchin' high and low
And little love is all I ask
A little sadness when you go
Maybe you'll need a friend
Only please don't let's pretend
A little love is all I askAnd that is all**
I wanna spread my wings
But I just can't flyAs a string of pearls
The pretty girls go sailin' by##
Ocean deep
I'm so afraid to show my feelings
I have sailed a million ceilings
Solitary room
Ocean deep
Will I ever find a lover
Maybe he has found another
And as I cry myself to sleep
I know this love of mine
I'll keep
Ocean deep
Now , can't you hear when I call
Can't you hear the word I say
A little love is all I ask
A little feelin' when we touch
Why am I still alone
I've got a heart without a home
A little love is all I askAnd that is all

life..

all this while i had been struggling within myself, all problems on relationships and beliefs and about life has come to me all at once..
it's all personal and seems ridiculous after i look back at it when time has passed,
it's just the expected experiences in life after all...
I must think more simple and relax and never think forward too much, life would be much easier if i didn't take every small things in life too seriously, right? Ha ha. :)
now gonna immerse myself in books-biology and chem and maths...

Got a bunch of mixed feelings recently. It's not the simple one as before. I can't find out why though. May be it's a result of different things different ways different lives... Feel like senseless sometimes. Tomorrow's not really apparent and the world is encumbering itself.

Justice justice justice...

Arggh....really sick in the process of finding info for ethics presentation.. Concept of Justice? Community Justice? Justice System? Justice in Islam? Socialism? Why i need to spend so much time finding those things? Haiyo... yahoo.com, dogpile.com...all are nightmares as searching tools alone. those info? Nothing and boring.

Everyday problem.

a lifetime problem....Having palmer hyperhidrosis is really a profound and dramatic experience. Palmer hyperhydrosis? That's the name of my problem. This is a condition has been detected in my early childhood. My palm can just sweat without a reason, sometimes can be for the whole day, I know that seem very unhygiene or dislike for most people. If you can't bear with me, that's it, i don't care much now. I'm actually constantly aware of this condition of my hands and I know I can undergo a surgery to overcome my problem, it's known as Endoscopic Thoracoscopic Sympathectomy. The percentage of success case is 98%. It's said to be safe too. Anyway, it's considered a major one anyway, plus some side effects like chest or back sweating, wound infection,..... Do you think it's worth to take that?

Why i never blog for so long ya? The main thing's that my computer has long been moved out of my house and now, the internet connection in my house has been terminated. Pity me... and i'm quite tired with the idea of having to spend RM2 for every hour of internet surfing at the internet cafe. Yearning to get a new laptop for myself.
Again, one more material desire. I just like to buy things and things and things, i might turn up to be the next 'shopaholic' soon, very soon. I really enjoy shopping, very much i can say, when i'm financially okay. Not good oh...always can't resist the urge to buy new things. Ho.....

My papa

About my dad's health condition, it's already not a new concern to me. Though his health level is considered good now, nothing to be worried much, but every time i see him, i would feel guilty as his daughter. I'm sure that he's not as strong as before, i'm very clear that he already reached his 'golden age', and i always feel his muscles and body just need rest but not too much rest too, ha ha. some healthy, relaxing and mind-challenging activities must be available to him to have his time occupied. I wish so much that i can afford to give him the best health and best pleasures in life, like buy him his most favourite books, the nicest sofa, a big and comfort house, and anything he likes, no matter how expensive those things'll be. But in the real world there's the real fact that i have no such financial ability. When will i have that ability? i'm clear about that, i still have a long time to go before i'm financially independent. But i just wish it could be now, he just deserved to enjoy the best now. I think too far may be, but i'll just have more and more of that feeling as i see him grow older and older....i feel guilty too sometimes if he cares and do too much things for me... I'll try my best to give you the best, ya.

4th Day-23rd Nov

The last day, we visited the medical ward and surgery ward in the morning to get an insight into the doctors' daily working routine in the ward. However, we are left there doing nothing and we can't help up on anything (of course, coz we don't have the required skills) although deep inside our heart we yearned so much to reach out. We just have some chatting with the patients and try to attend to their basic needs, and got bored so fast. The session also ends early...ha..
Visited frineds in UM too, and joined them to the human boday specimen hall where they studied anotomy there. The specimens there had been left for almost 2 decades and the body texture became almost like soil. From soil men were made and to dust they'll return, now i realized how true it's!
The meaning of life to me has changed somehow...got to see life from another perspective now. =)

3rd day..-22nd Nov.

It's the 3rd day, we are brought to the pathology department today. we visited the histopathology and cytology lab irst. The histology lab is where the fixation of the specimen is done by using a solution of 10% formalin, followed by the proces of waxing, thinning up to 4 um and finally staining with Xerin and other stains which i don't know how to name them. The observation of the nucleus of specimen under microscope will tell everything about the result. Abnormal cell will have different/unusual nuclear-membrane proportion and the nuclear envelope'll be unclear. The cell specimen can also be cut into only 1.5 um using () The whole process can be done in only 10 mins but only for emergency case as it involves very high cost.. While at the histopathology lab2, specimens are further processed, and here the diagnosis are done. The staining process involved more complex colour stain. AT the cytology lab the cel is studied under microscope. There's also TV screen for microscopic view. Learn quite a lot at the labs here.
After that, the most exciting part came, we have the chane to witness a post-mortem. A male Bangladeshi at the age of 30 sth died suddenly at home on the day before, he is suspected alleged poisonous. The whole process is very suspending. The whole body is cut half, ribs are cut open in the middle then all the fresh organs are taken out, even the brain! I've seen all the real organs for the first time ever, and i will never forget about that scence...The organs are examined thoroughly, all parts are cut into pieces to check on. We are all so stunned to have viewed the whole thing. The face expression of the diseased is still clear in my mind till now and i just hope I won't have any nightmare about this.. Haha...

2nd day- 21st Nov

Feeling reluctantly, we start our second day in hospital. Today we spent the whole day at the Rehabilitation department. We have a chance to glance over the wound washing of diabetic patient by staff nurse. We are then brought to ward 8U where we saw patient who sufferred from stroke, some got half-paralysed or paralysed down the waist and some lost their muscle strength. We studied how the facilities in the ward is designed to suit their special needs.
We also visited neurotherapy clinic and a small gym where patients undergo exercises with weighing bags to strengthen their muscle. For patient who can't stand on their feet, they need to exercise on a device which'll incline a little by little to help them support on their feet. The hospital also do rehabilitaton for stroke patient, they need to exercise their hands and turn their body to prevent their muscle from losing strength, although the patient'll be in great pain to do that. I feel pity to one pak cik who sufferred so much because of stroke. Hai... We also visited the occupation therapy clinic where hyperactive children or children with slow development( mentally disabled) is treated. The orthopedic clinic is also an important and only workshop in the hospital where false legs are moulded. At noon, we attend a lecture on rehabilitation and we learnt how disabled persons of various cases make their way towards independent life. An economic graduate who had lost all his arms and legs still face his life optimistically and survived and is mobile in his wheelchair which he controlled by using only his chin. It's an inspiring lecture for us.
In the afternoon, we visited the orthopedic clinic again but a different one and lastly we witnessed a minor surgery in the operation room. Witnessed the whole process and the doctors are really very professional. Finally, a sag is taken out from the patient's right wrist, and it's said to be a ganglion... Quite scary to see the doctor pull open the flesh wide, huh... but it's not a bloody surgery though, but i can still feel the tense in the room..Haha..

First day..-20th Nov

I've lost touch with this blogsite for quite a time. That's because i have been busy all week. First with my hospital attachment, then i ended last week with illness. I suppose i've got some eye-infection from the hospital and i even had vomitted a few times to be serious enough to get an injection on my butt, ha ha. But thank God i'm okay now.

The UM Medical Centre is a good training ground for apprentice doctors and specialists with various departments. There's the UM Specialist Centre which caters for ONG, Otorhinolaryngology(ENT) and Ophthalmology(Eye). And there are even kiosks and Delifrance in the hospital, which i never thought of.
The staff in charged for our attachment "tour" first brought us to the surgery department where we have the chance to visit most of the area of operation department. The operation region is isolated from the outside atmosphere by having its own internal air circulation system. Doors are set to close automatically all the time, and all windows are closed. The air is recleansed cotinuously to minimise infection. There's the pre-operation region where patients who are about to undergo operation is given thorough body check-up on blood pressure, heart pulse, breathing condition and so on. We also learnt that there are 3 operation theatres among 16 o.t. which are reserved for emergency case. As for the patients who has undergone operation will be placed in a region of 'post-operation' where they'll be attended by personal medical staff for detailed care until their 'critical moments' is over. Besides that, we have the chance to visit one of the o.t. but an empty one, that o.t. is meant for emergency use, we are not allowed to enter the other o.t. which are on operation as we've missed the time. Sigh...
In the afternoon, we visited the out patient department. There's a special clinic which's meant for T.B. patient. The T.B. patient is adviced to receive regular consultation but have to collect their medication from the consultant itself as the T.B. can be infected through air contaction and thus they are best to avoid from going to public places for other patients' safety. Besides that, we also went to the outpatient and inpatient worklab of pharmacy department. We learnt how the medicine are dispensed accordingly and how the system works.
Feeling tired at the end of the day with some disappointment as we didn't learn much as we had expected and may be because some of the staff just treat us lightly..

What is music to you?

Music is freedom that relentlessly exists
Freedom of speech
Freedom of thought
Freedom of creativity
Freedom of imagination

Music is ever soothingly healing
A bombardment of on-going expression of feelings

Music is a tool of unity
Always bringing people together as family
Hence be described as a mentor of spirituality

Music is magic
Performing its tricks
With sweet instrumental tones and lyrics
Emotionally captivating and positively distracting
Music is a form of beautiful art

Music is an angel
Singing out from the skies as she flies
Music is love
the food of all moods